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Haven't posted much lately, but things are going so great, hectic but great. I'm being pulled in so many directions that I'm afraid I might come apart at the seams, but I'm having such a great time doing it.

I started college and love all my classes, even though they're difficult. I'm also attempting to get involved with student groups.

Work is, well work, but it pays for my fun times and I've met some great friends there.

I've joined a Rocky cast, made some kick ass friends, hope to do this for years.

Dad moved out to California for five months and we lost the house, but we're ok, I live with my mom so that didn't really affect me directly. Sunk some cash into getting them out of trouble, I'll never see it again, but that's ok. Live and learn. It only bothers me that I'm taking care of an otherwise able adult instead of the other way around.

I met not one but two guys, great great people one of whom loves me and the other who is perfectly open and honest about what he wants. I may lose second guy, but that's ok, I don't need him, either of them really, I'm strong enough to stand on my own two feet, and I've learned that this year. I don't need my parents, my friends, my lovers, I can make it on my own.

And that's huge, because I was always afraid, so afraid of being alone or not in control but I don't need to be any more. Because once I let go, things got better. Too many pots on the stove, but better. I've done a lot of growing up this year. With a 20th looming, I'm not as scared as I was a year ago. Hopefully my twenties are even better than my teens.

so, for the first time in the better portion of a decade, I will be visiting a new friend for the first time. I know, I'm a nerd. See, where I grew up, everyone knew everyone, so new blood was rare. I honestly don't think I've ever spent just hang out time with anyone who I hadn't gone school with for at least five years. So hopefully I won't come off as creepy and anti-social.

well, this is my first day off since the breakup, and it's been pretty good.  I took mom to the doctor for her ankle and did some shopping with her, bought a cute little magnet, "I sing opera in the shower she said, and I'm pretty good all my shampoo bottles think so." 

I was supposed to go shopping with Bree today, but she never called me back, so I guess she was busy with the kids and boyfriend, he had today off too.  I need to locate dinner and soda, so I'll write back some other time.

I've been planning this big Halloween Party for a few weeks.  I want more than the usual suspects so I invite a few friends from work (read: everyone under eighty.)  I also allow Jen carte blanche to invite whomever she chose.  In retrospect, that could have gone really badly as her friends are as wild as they come.  I asked Jack if he would want to invite anyone,  and he said no, but did ask if he could bring anything.  I left him with the chips.  So, everyone I invited had to work.  Jen's people have varying excuses.  Jack shows up without chips. oh well, with food purchased for twenty and only four people attending we didn't need the chips.  So just the Usual Suspects proceed with the party, which at this point involves getting my Joker makeup all over Jack.  So I ask them to just stay the night.  And he says that he doesn't want to, not can't, not doesn't want to tonight, doesn't want to.  We proceed to have a fight.  Culminating in him crying on my shoulder at my party that I'm too good for him and that he doesn't know what he wants and he wants to be my friend but not my girlfriend.  meanwhile my mother, little sister and Jen and Chris are in the other room wondering what the hell is going on.  Nice guy.